I went out there and did everything I said I would going out there and beating Redemption, it may have been a bit of a brutal match, something I was a bit shocked to find to be honest. But the one thing that rang true was the fact that I beat him just like I said I would. People can try and say what ever the hell they want but the fact remains that he lost, he was bloodied and he was most certainly beaten just like I said I would. So Redemption just remember one thing, just because you are supposed to be intimidating and you have a scary name and shit you have to be able to back up everything else. If you can’t backup anything then you have no business being in the ring.
So now that brings me to the next show and that is my opponent someone that calls himself the Masked Grappler. I mean really how freaking hard is it to come up with a better name, a better persona ANYTHING to make you stand out a little bit more then what you are currently doing.
I mean you’re like vanilla personified…
White Bread…
Vanilla Pudding…
White Paint…
Watching white paint dry…
Toast…
And you…
What do you have in common with all of them? You’re boring, you’re unoriginal and you’re pathetic. You need to go back to wrestling school and get a different gimmick, unless being lame and boring is what you are hoping to do then you have that in spades my friend…in spades…
But it still doesn’t make much of a difference, you are still going to lose, you are still destined to feel defeat at my hands. I am going to make another move up the rankings ladder and there is not a damn thing you can do about it. You just need to realize that sometimes in this business you have to at least put a little bit of creativity behind the character and not only what you can do in the ring because my friend if you are the words greatest “grappler” but you are as bland as unbuttered toast to look at then you are never going to get anywhere in this business.
That is why I have done what I have, been where I have been and have the legendary status that I have. I have worked hard developing this character and making it one of the best damn things going today. You may not like and some of the others in the back may not like it, but you have to take one more thing into account and that is the fact that I fill seat just by showing up.
So while you are showing up and wearing that white mask, white trunks, white books and tidy whities underneath it all you might as well carry a loaf of Wonderbread with you cause that is exactly what you are personifying my friend. But the fact remains is that come the next show you are going to be just another notch on my career belt, nothing personal, just business pal…just business.
One thing that does bother me is you being a boorish, cookie cutter, masked wrestler but you have a little bit of dark side. I find that very intriguing, very odd considering the type of wrestler that you appear to be. I just wonder what other things you might have in your closet?
Foot Fetish?
Maybe you like Anal Beads?
Maybe you are a little “curious”? I mean you were whipping some dude in your “basement” or whatever you people call your little fun rooms. I seriously wonder about a mans’ manhood when he is shown whipping another man tied up. Is there something going on that we all need to know about?
But enough about that, enough with the little jokes at your expense, it’s not really worth and quite frankly it bores me. How bout we just meet at the ring and we see who comes out the better man. Honestly you are the type of wrestler that bores me…no creativity…no color…no nothing…you’re just a plain brown paper page with no writing on it at all.
Just remember this Masked Grappler…
It’s nothing personal…
Just business…
Noah’s Place
Shaker Heights, Ohio
6:55 pm
“Hey…” Alexander said as he walked into my meditation room.
I simply nodded as I finished my thoughts and prayers and then gathered myself and got to my feet and then walked over and blew out the candle…
“What can I do for you cousin?” I asked.
I continued walking out of the room and across the yard to the main house; Alex was trying to keep up and seemed to have something on his mind…
“I am in a bit of a pickle…” he said slowly and kinda like he was afraid of what I might say or do.
“You need some money?” I asked.
“Ten grand…” he deadpanned.
“Can’t quit the gambling can you?” I replied as I walked to my den and to the picture of me posing with Noah Wylie from ER and opened it like a door and pressed my thumb against the thermal lock. It opened and I pulled a couple of bundles out and tossed them to Alex.
“I owe you…” he remarked.
“Alex you need help, you need to quit all this before it destroys you, and it’s like an addiction. If you don’t get help for it I am going to be burying you next to everyone else that has left me lately.” I said angrily. “And yes you do owe me, but that will get settled down the road, not here, not now.”
“It will never come to that…” he said with a scoff.
“You say that like you can control your destiny or something. You can never control destiny, if you are meant to die than there is nothing you can do about it, fate and destiny are things not to be messed with.” I said as I closed the safe and walked by him and into the kitchen.
I grabbed a bottle of tea and took a long drink…
“You have no idea how hard it is, knowing that anyone that comes into contact with me could very well die. It’s like the grim reaper is sitting next to me or something…” I replied with a sigh.
“Do you really think that you’re cheating death, like in those Final Destination movies or something? Well, I hate to disappoint you but it does not work like that death does not miss, he does not take a mulligan, if I learned anything while I lived in Asia its that death is constant, unflappable and unforgiving, if you are alive there is a reason…” Alex remarked as he tucked his money into his coat pocket.
“I know that, but still it is hard to believe that this is all some sort of grand design. That I am supposed to lead people to some promised land like some sort of wrestling disciple. I believe in a lot of stuff but that is hard for me to swallow, I am no messiah, I am not a savoir all I am is a man that wants to see his daughter grow up to be a woman and to see her get married. There are very few things that matter to me at the moment.” I said as I took another drink.
“Wrestling?” he asked.
“Wrestling is just a creative outlet, I need something to channel my anger, pain and suffering towards. In many ways it is therapeutic for me to wrestle; it feels like it cleanses me from within. I dunno if that makes any sense to you but to me it is all I have and for now that will have to be enough.” I said as I sat down on one of the stools and sighed.
“What about your daughter?” he asked.
I sighed a bit when he asked the question, was not really sure how to answer the question. Not sure I could answer the question, I mean I still struggle piecing together all of this. I mean the death of Kristina, me pushing forward trying to make sense of everything, I just don’t know where to go or who to turn to for support…
“Alexandria means the world to me…” I said with a deep sigh.
“Then be there for her, she needs her dad now…” he demanded.
“I’m not ready for all that now; it’s hard enough for me to get out of bed.” I said fighting back emotions.
“Well your daughter needs you now; she needs you to be strong, to be her dad and to be the man I grew up with. You know that, she knows that but the thing is you need to get a hold of yourself and turn all of this around. You have to turn this negative part of your life into a positive.” He remarked and then proceeded to leave the house.
Could he really have been right? Could it really be that way? Do I just need to put this all in a positive light?
Destiny?
Fate?
MY FUTURE….
I am positive about one thing and one thing only…my destiny is intertwined with my daughter. For some reason everything seems to focus on her and how we see each other, maybe hanging up my boots would be for the better, maybe not. It is going to be the hardest decision I will ever have to make when I decide to hang up the boots, but I will do whatever I have to, to make Alexandria happy.
Even if it means walking away from the one thing that keeps me sane…